8 Why I Still Hate Math

He has fading hair, always wears a tie, and tries to get me to speak.
I almost never do, but every now and then he succeeds.
Have I made a friend or found a secret ally?
He praises my Calculus test scores in front of the other students. Do they admire me now?

During study hall, all the other students are out of control.
I black out one day, and it is he who shakes me awake.
Asking: “Are you alright?”
Looking back, I wonder how long I could have stayed locked in my own mind.

Then one day, he betrays me.
What I thought was a friend, was a monster and a sadist.
He caught me off guard and humiliated me, pushing my head down on my desk.
I wish I could confront him as an adult. But then, it wouldn’t change anything.