[i have not]

I have not married

Not yet.

I have looked into the night longing for the sweet embrace of a lover.

But at what cost?

What will I have lost?

Finding the sweet embrace of a lover–

For what is a lover but

Someone.

A drinker.

A smoker.

An adulterer.

Who claims to love me at the end of the day.

Despite myself, I still loved them.

But I have not married.

My family has asked.

But they know none love me.

I crumble strongly and live unburied.